Goodbye, farewell, adios, au revoir

Okay guys, so this has taken me a week to get round to doing this post, and i dont know, its making me feel quite sad now i’m finally writing it, but i dont like WordPress anymore, and i wont be posting on here anymore.

Now there are several reasons for this, and a lot of it is due to the layout of it. Within the past month I’ve tried to make several posts and they didn’t post. I have grown increasingly frustrated with the new post page when it comes to writing a new entry. I’ve known of Blogspot for quite a while and I even followed several blogs on there for a bit. On here I can count a total of 2 people who update their blogs and whos posts I actually read. And neither of them have posted in quite a while. I’ve been in the blogosphere for the best part of 4 years now (I initially started with Livejournal in the summer of 2008 lol) and in that time its changed a lot! I’ve been using WordPress for almost 2 years now and I honestly just do not like it anymore, the layout of it is messy, several of my posts havent posted when i’ve saved them as drafts and then edited them and tried to post them and just ugh. It isnt the same anymore. I first liked blogging because of the idea of a little community. I had friends with blogs and at first it was great being able to read eachothers regular updates. But life has naturally got in the way and none of us post anywhere near as frequently as we used to.

However, I’m not for giving up. I have a new blog (i know i know) at www.drbnsn-xo.blogspot.com so if you want more of the same content as you’ve seen on here, feel free to give it a read. The new post page is much better than it is on WordPress (in fact i’ll be surprised if this posts) so yes, I’ll miss you all but it’s on to pastures new.

Dara xo

Wreck This Journal

so this arrived in the post today :)))) i am far too excited to get started and go wild! i have really felt that i am lacking in creativity and ideas at the minute so this will hopefully help me get it back :D

also, you can have a photo of me being my usual mardy self, look so grumpy but this is what happens when you get bored on some Thursday evening. Photo project to follow soon :)

- Dara x

This is all i ever wanted from life…

i dont know, is this the part where i start explaining my post titles? i will forever love snow patrol and lifening is my new favourite song atm so yeah :) i love it so much okay. theyll mostly be lyrics of songs im loving so i guess my titles wont really need any explanations but still.

I also have no photos to compliment this post this time (is this the part where i start apologising?) i also dont know but anyway im doing a photo project at the minute so i should have some very interesting photos for you all next time i blog, or at least an attempt at being interesting. Basically watch this space and all will be revealed :)

so, in terms of life and all that stuff, what is new? oh y’know, just jobhunting, shopping and spending too much money but having lots of pretty things (well i will when my amazon orders arrive :)) writing uni assignments and wanting to throw myself off the roof of my uni library. the assignment is done and printed though so all is good. and i am ready for handing it in tomorrow (not like the last time which resulted in me running around like a headless chicken trying not to cry because the printers werent working). i am calm and cool this time around for the moment but i still have so much uni work to do, it’s ridiculous. and i already have another 2 assignments to keep me busy, no chance of being bored, the fun never stops at uni! hehe and i have a night out planned for Tuesday night, a wee pub quiz in the students union, well hopefully i’ll go. ive avoided so many nights out this month and i dont even know why, its just complicated i guess. its really really not easy living at home but it doesnt have to be that way. we’ll see :) at least im not expecting anything so wont be disappointed.

also, i am feeling a lot of confusion at the moment. i guess everyone at 18 feels this way but i just worry too much about the future and what i want. because what i want is constantly changing. even when it comes to silly things like tattoos and piercings, i have several ideas for tattoos i want now but at the same time i’m wary, i’m just like, will i want that in 5 years? will i outgrow them? will i be deemed silly or too old for them? (this is not just about tattoos or piercings, you understand, its about a lot of other things in life too) and i guess ive no way of really knowing, but im just biding my time and seeing how i feel in maybe a years time or 2.

also also also, i have given up twitter for Lent. I know right? it’s insane and i miss it so much, as sad as that sounds but it wouldnt be the same without all the people i talk to on it, including someone i like and i just miss talking to them all i guess. but sometimes looking back at my old tweets i feel horrified and like ‘why did i say that?!’ i complain way too much on it and sometimes got more bitchy than was warranted so hopefully the hiatus will enable me to become a nicer person over it all. i guess overall i really just needed to get my priorities straight for the minute and focus on other things but hopefully speaking with friends and the social life side of things won’t be taking a back seat. i have been texting a lot more since giving it up though, and i have a wee lunch date planned on Tuesday with a friend i havent seen since October! so it all works out :) i’m just getting on with things as usual i guess, and all is well. And i hope its the same for you all!

Dara x

And everytime i see you everything starts making sense…

Hello :) long time no blog! I was going to try and write a post about Whitney Houston (RIP) but it didn’t save and now i’ve lost it. I may try and write it again tonight. I have always been such a fan of her and it’s gutting.

Anyway, this is just a quick update post and it’s quite frankly unnecessary. Nothing’s changed since my last update, but nevertheless I feel obliged to blog. Although that said, this morning i woke up to a wee email with dates for my Skydiving course (i can do it on 4th March or 10th March. I am SO excited, but it’s still such an obscene amount of money (£200) so going to have a chat with Mum about it tomorrow night properly. Otherwise, i’m still deciding what to do about the jobhunt. It feels like theres such pressure to have a part time job even though i’m studying. no idea what to do but i’m going for dinner with the girls tonight again. I love eating out on Saturday nights, properly love it. Looking forward to some pub grub later (food solves everything) and then a bit of craic at SYC :)

Oh and photos?

Whitney and Michael (RIP), yours truly and a photo i got sent by my lovely friend Joanne which really cheered me up on Valentines Day :) i do miss our inside jokes in our History class from school. While we’re on the subject, Valentines Day was all right, didnt know whether to feel happy or sad on the day itself although i did get 4 Valentines texts (including one from him which made me smile ridiculous amounts) because i have lovely friends so despite being single it was all right, my friends are after all the people who will always come first. Hope life is going lovely for the rest of you all :)

D x

sometimes when i miss you, i put those records on

The photo isnt anything to do with the post title but just being dramatic, and it was kind of inspired by the we found love video because i really liked the visuals of it. Anyway, it’s the only recent photo i have that i havent already posted haha and i couldn’t get the angle i wanted (may invest in a tripod) and the lighting was bad but that is the result :)

Anyway, this is another rambly post about nothing in particular. Actually, I was going to make this post about my frustrations with jobhunting. Because it is frustrating the life out of me. No where is hiring, unless I havent been looking hard enough or in the right places. I have been checking websites daily but there are no vacancies that i could actually do. I’m so frustrated :( As well as that there’s the whole interview stage if you even get to that and I haven’t done any interviews for ages so I’m out of practice there too. As well, as that, university is also distracting. And I sometimes feel like I can’t have them both, like a university degree and a part time job at the same time. I have said in the past I’m not very good at multi tasking, and I really struggled during my A-Levels last year because I was trying to do it all, between UCAS, driving lessons, jobhunting (and doing a few interviews which went horribly) and doing A-Levels, as well as sleep and having a social life. And I dont know how some people somehow manage to do it all at once, because I certainly struggled, but it got better. I completed UCAS and I passed my driving test and I got into uni and I passed all my A-Levels. But a job has always been the one thing missing, and to be honest it’s the one thing I need the most. I know I work with my Mum when I’m off university and the during the summer, but it’s not really enough. Maybe i should wait until I graduate? I really don’t know what to do. I think another main problem is lacking motivation etc. Hopefully things will fall into place eventually, but we’ll see.

I’ll blog more soon

- Dara x

More random rambles…

Hi everyone :) i apologise for being neglectful of this blog as of late! as i said, i’ve been working full time these past 2 weeks and this week i started back at uni! i feel like such a big geek being in the library already so early into semester 2 but hey, as i said i want that first and hopefully we’re going to be off to a good start (went into the library for 8am today). it’s that time of year again when everyone is getting into re-freshers as it’s a new semester so im definitely going to try and work on my confidence levels and meet more people! im going to start attending the meetings of all the clubs and societies i joined in September and join a few new ones at the re-fresher’s fair tomorrow! i’m not even going to lie, living at home is the worst thing ever for this, apart from people on my course i literally havent met anyone and it sucks! my shyness and everything is what has held me back. but, ive my first tutorials tomorrow (yesterday and today have just been induction lectures and today’s one only lasted 15 minutes! definitely the best) so hoping my tutorial groups are lovely! i hope im going to enjoy the modules this semester as i really didnt enjoy them last semester and it was difficult for a lot of reasons. hopefully going up from here!

and you can have some recent photos (me being forever vain and bored at stupid hours of the day/night, the fry my dad made on Saturday mmm, and some yummy chinese food and catch ups with my favourite girls)

but enough about uni because i know it isnt that interesting…im really looking forward to this semester. i’m thinking the key thing is planning ahead, as theres a lot of work to be done this semester so im going to get a head start already and im really excited as my diary is fast filling up with plans for 2012 and everything. i already cannot wait for Florida in August, and i’m hoping to go over and see Eve as she’s in Nottingham and basically being in uni without her is like missing an arm, as pathetic as that sounds. hopefully shall get an overnight booked to go and visit her and maybe we’ll end up in London too :)! I’m also hoping to go to London for my friend Susan’s birthday at the beginning of June, and i believe that may be during the Queen’s Diamond Jubilee celebrations! London will be mental especially coming up to the Olympics also but i absolutely adore the city, and they’re well overdue a visit from me as i havent been since 2009! I am also thinking of applying to go on a trek in Iceland up one of their volcanoes in August 2013, possibly. i have that opportunity and i’m so excited! i really need to start chatting to my mum and getting her involved in all these plans though, there is so much that would need to be organised! i’ll also be able to apply for ERASMUS come September and i’m so excited for that but impatient and hopefully i’ll have plenty to keep me occupied between now and then but again, it comes the point of sitting down and having a proper uninterrupted chat with my Mum about all these plans and getting her approval. i have so many opportunities and it would be madness not to take them but i have been very disorganised lately! i need to make a massive list, i thought i’d be able to use the “tasks” organiser on my Blackberry but it’s quite difficult to see what needs done, i prefer to see it on paper. i have completed my first to-do list book though which is hilarious. it was basically an exercise book where i just wrote task after task of what i needed to do, but it did the trick and it kept me organised! just so much planning etc. to do and as usual here i am sitting blogging about it instead of being productive.

That said, my own blog has taken somewhat of a backseat lately, partially because i’ve been reading and being inspired by a lot of other blogs! i have been making good use of the “Next blog” feature on Blogger, and i love just flicking through and reading random blogs chock full of pretty pictures, ideas and general creativity. and what stands out is that, with the majority of blogs, there is an underlying theme or “passion” in the author. There are beauty blogs, music blogs, political blogs and everything in between. And that’s what i’m missing out on in my blog, a “theme” or a passion. This blog is primarily about me and my life and as a kind of documentation of everything thats happening at uni and i know thats not that interesting and i really wish i did have a passion and something more interesting to blog about. i also lack the audience! as an example, i love makeup and clothes as much as the next girl, but i lack the money, motivation, and time to buy, review, take photos/swatches etc of products i’d be talking about so i wouldnt be able to run a blog about it. i do think i will get my youtube account sorted though. i have everything up there from years ago at the minute, including silly videos of some friends who are not friends anymore and concert videos and i cant decide what to do with them! should i take them down or leave them up? and what would i upload new videos of? would i do vlogs? i have so many ideas floating around in my head and have had so much inspiration from looking through what other people have put up so watch this space as i hope to figure out what i want to do with my internet life. i also need to sort out my Tumblr as well as its a mishmash of everything and i want it to be more organised! However i am glad this inspiration has come at 5pm in the evening as opposed to midnight or 1am as it usually does and preventing sleep. and of course you will always find me on twitter which is linked, so happy stalking and basically watch this space! i do actually have to go and be productive and put dinner on now so i’ll blog more soon

Dara xo

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Saturday night :) been working all last week so was good to get out and have some yummy chinese food with the girls, and we ordered several dishes between us and as i discovered today thats how chinese people eat their food, sharing it between everyone :). also, saturday night was the eve of the chinese new year which made it all the more fitting. was lovely to see everyone again at syc too (which is where the photos are from) even though we were small in numbers. 2 days left of working full time and then i’m off for another wee while. also have to leave my car into the garage (finally!!) tomorrow to get fixed :) so stoked to have a car which will feel brand new again and will be all fixed up and perfect and then when i get him back i will give him a proper clean at the weekend. but for now i have lots to do and i still never manage to pull myself off the internet despite this! so im off to do just that. byyyyyyye xo